Friday, November 28, 2008

Where is Emily ? Missing since March 2008

Ive just decided that I'm going to do some stories besides adoption. Stories that are about loss.

There is a father who is grieving the loss of his child - Emily. She was abducted by her mother

Please have a look at this My Space Page

Please have a look at this Emily's Page

Have you seen Emily ?

No one should just Snatch a child, no matter what the circumstances, Things should be worked out, a child should never be *stolen* from their parent in favour of another.....

Mike has custody of Emily.

Have you seen this little girl ?

Get in contact if you have ..............

Monday, November 24, 2008

Do you know this Man ? PLEASE READ

There is a man who has a family somewhere in some place...

Are you his family ?


This Man took on the name of Benjamin Kyle after being discovered badly beaten and left for dead and with severe ant bites all over him in August 2004

There is a detailed amount of information about him HERE

And here is a photo of him - please look at him - DO YOU KNOW HIM ?





Have you ever seen him before ?


Everyone deserves to know who their family is , what their REAL identity is

Someone knows this man DO YOU ??

Monday, November 17, 2008

Nine Months should be how long it takes to adopt a child.....

So says Deborra Lee Furness.

Why is this woman muddying our Australia waters with the pain for adoption ? Because her and her famous actor husband couldn't have a child, and they had to adopt, and it took a long time..so now her mission is to wind up our Prime Minister and the policy makers and get it to the point of being able to adopt within (and I quote) GESTATION PERIOD - ie nine months... Yup She thinks that you should be able to get a baby through adoption just like growing one inside your belly - 9months!

I heard her on the way home today on our local radio station 92.9fm with Kyle and Jackie O....they were talking to DLF about "adoption awareness week" you can google it if you must and check out her website, I won't give publicity to it here. She spoke of how Australia needs to come forward and be able to adopt in a shorter time, and when asked by Jackie O what would be suitable time frame......her answer was...... Gestation period ..

Is she for REAL? 9 months to assess someone to be a suitable parent ? Have a Good read of the horror stories on my blog and others blogs about children who are adopted in the USA - have a good look , and theirs is longer than 9mths even...abuse...mental abuse...physical abuse....sexual abuse...murder......

You know, DLF has a voice, she could use it for greatness, trying to jump on the adoption bandwagon and get adoptions pushed through quicker in Australia, is not using that voice in the best interest of the people of Australia..

Australia is about Family Preservation, NOT ripping a child from its mother...

I would invite DLF to come and speak to me, an adoptee who was adopted into a normal loving family with a very good upbringing, never wanting for anything, but who has huge issues from being adopted, not from anything else but purely from being adopted. Come and talk to me, read my blog...my Mother should not have had to give me up, she should have been encouraged to keep me, I have a sister 2.5 years older than me and a huge family that has been ripped apart from me..

Whenever I watched the Waltons or any of the shows with large family gatherings, my heart would ache, I would always be asking why isn't my family like that...I ached for my family (unbeknown to me) I ached for the people who were like me, loud, emotional, loving, who happily played games at family functions, danced and really had a good time at gatherings, I ached for that with my quiet little family gatherings that I TRIED To inject that into, and unbeknown to me I had a family on the other side of the world who was just like that, just like me....

Growing up, I continually asked , Can I have a sister, unbeknown to me - I already had one 2.5 years older than me....

So come and talk to me about adoption, and how it should have taken LONGER for the process to have enabled my mother to give birth to me and then walk out of the hospital and leave me in the hands of a stranger - a foster mother - for 6 weeks - until my parents adopted me...My Mother should have been made to keep me for longer to bond with, she should have been given financial assistance and emotional support, and then she wouldn't have been able to give me away, changing my life and destiny forever.

Talk to the thousands of children given up to adoption but still languishing in the orphanages , or foster care system , or indeed the adoptees who have been subjected to hell on earth because their adoptive parents "cant work them out" and take them off to a psychiatrist who then either drugs them to the eyeballs or refers them onto some idiot that practices holding therapy...

Read my blog, read the links in my blog...

You think that because YOU are a good parent, that you have resources to help you parent that all adoptive parents are like you ? well they ARE NOT. It takes a LOT to parent a child, it takes even more to parent the adopted child.

Deborra Lee Furness , I was one of the lucky ones, I got GOOD adoptive Parents REALLY Good adoptive parents...but it does not stop the pain of losing my natural family. Every day I face a challenge because I am adopted...

I am NOT anti adoption, I believe in adoption for TRUE Orphans and for those children of true abusive parents that should not be in arms distance EVER of a child. I do not believe in permanent adoption for those children in situations where the parent makes a mistake..Then the children should have guardianship.........
I do agree the foster system SUCKS - big time. Its just as bad as the adoption system.

Children are our future. They are not commodities, but they are being traded as such just the same.

Perhaps you and I could come to a common good......

But that day won't come until people STOP trying to take newborns away from those mothers that use adoption like a contraceptive.

There are married people out there who make a woops, who can not financially see past the trees to raise another child, these are the people that my heart aches so much for, being forced to give up their baby , that is wrong. That is where we need to stop adoption from happening...

I invite Deborra Lee Furness to contact me in private through my Letter box - top left hand corner and I will gladly give her my phone number and discuss this with her. We should NOT be promoting adoption in Australia, we should not be trying to get young girls that make mistakes to hand over their newborns to infertile couples, we should be trying to save foster children, we should be trying to set up a guardian ship type adoption, where the child doesn't lose their true identity, their name is not changed, they are not lied to, they are not changed in anyway, they just have guardian parents to look after them.

After all when a mother and father divorce and either one remarries the child doesn't get a new identity , they still know who their parents are, they just have a new one in the mix.

Adoption should only be for true orphans, and children whose parents can no longer EVER reform and take care of them.

I invite your comments, please remember that anon ones are not allowed, and nor are nasty ones

:)

Monday, November 3, 2008

Open your Eyes if you are a Human Being

Right now if I was a USA Citizen or a UK citizen Id be ashamed.
Ashamed at how children are being treated in these Places..
Places supposedly of the free world, of respect and of higher standards..
Right now I am worried about how Australia is going towards the same path, if we are not careful..

Tell me people , exactly how does sitting on a child's chest, whilst they are covered in a blanket, swaddled tightly like a baby, being yelled at, abused and sworn at, told to go ahead and just die..tell me people how does that sound to you as a good thing ?

Let me ask you a question, if someone was to suggest to you right now that we take your child, we wrap that child tightly bound in hot and heavy blankets, and then we sit atop your child , a heavy weighted man that weighs oh 6 times more than your child, and we make your child sweat profusely , and allow them no water , no toilet, in fact we allow them nothing , except to cry out for help, and even then they are abused for doing so, they are told repeatedly over and over how no good they are , how useless they are , how they deserve every bit of this...
And how it continued that way until they were gasping for breath and even then nothing was done, and then you realized that your child was dead............................


Tell me if I or someone else was to suggest doing that to your child what would your reaction be ?

One of absolute shock ?

One of absolute horror ?

One of absolute fear ?

Well trust me it is going on in the heart of the USA and other supposedly humanitarian places in this world.

Sometimes I have to wonder as the world progresses further with technology and life whether its doing more harm to our society than good. Certainly there is more crime and drugs than there was in my parents day or their parents day..Yes i know there was other things, diseases and so forth but surely there just has to be some sort of a respectful happy medium where technology and advancement in civilization meets.

Today I visited this blog

Today I was again upset.

Today I again questioned WHY ? why does this sort of horrific torture go on in this world ?

Are we reverting back to the dark ages ? Are we reverting back to a time of pure evil ?

Seems to me the answer is yes on both accounts.

You need to read this blog fully, read these posts about these children who died during so called Attachment Therapy or Holding Therapy.. read it and come and tell me you think that its perfectly ok to do that..........

Come back and tell me that you think that children with issues will actually get better whilst being held down and treated in a way that is lower than what some animals receive ?
Come back here and tell me that you think its ok to kill a child by these methods......

Ah well another *bad one* less in our society.....is that what you think ? is that how backward we have become ?

That we think that abusing children is ok in the name of *Therapy* is...

Truly tell me do you really believe this is ok ? or are you as MAD AS ALL HELL ?

Tell me that you think that someone like THESE people who MURDERED Little Candace Newmaker using this RIDICULOUS So called therapy were right in the head to begin with?
Personally I think it was the lot of them that needed this therapy not Candace - you can also read about this HERE and I warn you please have a bucket nearby, and a box of tissues (or ten)

As an excerpt from one of the above links:

Candace Newmaker led a sad and an unlucky life. She was taken away from her birth mother in North Carolina, allegedly because of abuse, and spent time in five foster homes before she was adopted at age 6 by a single woman, Jeane Newmaker.

The adoptive mother testified that the girl was extremely difficult to handle, had started a fire in her home and abused other children. She said she turned to Watkins as a last resort. The mother’s was the only testimony presented at trial that Candace had significant behavioral problems. Her teachers, neighbors, and even a catechism teacher, saw none of the problems reported by Jeane Newmaker. Doctors accepted the mother’s reports in choosing treatments and assessing progress.







So we have a child removed from her first mother for suspected abuse? and given straight into the hands of a psychotic SINGLE OBESE woman to adopt her



Anyone wonder why this woman wanted to adopt Candace ? I'll give you THREE Guesses !

I invite your comments -

Eta:

Found this on Wikipedia but its a matter of record in numerous other places..

A year later, Watkins and Ponder were tried and convicted of reckless child abuse resulting in death and received 16-year prison sentences. Brita St. Clair and Jack McDaniel, the therapeutic foster parents, pleaded guilty to criminally negligent child abuse and were given ten years' probation and 1000 hours of community service in a plea bargain.[7][8] The adoptive mother, Jeanne Newmaker, a nurse practitioner, pleaded guilty to neglect and abuse charges and was given a four-year suspended sentence, after which the charges were expunged from her record. An appeal by Watkins against conviction and sentence failed.[9] Watkins was paroled in June, 2008, under "intense supervision" with restrictions on contact with children or counseling work, having served approximately 7 years of her 16-year sentence.[10]
I've Bolded and put in italics the relevant section I want to discuss...

How does a woman who is a a pediatric Nurse, and a single woman, allowed to adopt a child, and then through HER and ONLY HER taking that child to a psychiatrist within just months of the adoption, resulting in going to a $7000 - for two weeks treatment resulting in The child's death get to serve no time and then worse still get to have her record expunged.........

To what ? go and adopt another child again ? only to turn around and indirectly kill it ?

Not only should this woman have gone to Jail for the crime she committed but she should never be allowed to adopt a child again, nor be a pediatric nurse taking care of vulnerable children.

It amazes me how ALL these people involved in this adopted child's death, were not on trial for murder.

I do not understand why this practice of Attachment Therapy and all the other despicable things going on like Trading of Adopted/fostered children is not immediately made 100 percent illegal with serious jail time penalties given for those that continue to do it.

It makes me unbelievably sad and sickened to know that this time of *treatment* is still going on.

These people that practice this, and those that abuse their children, adopted , fostered or biological are not worthy to be called human beings, they treat children like this because they can, because children are innocent, trusting and unable to defend themselves against these people. IT is no different to men who beat women, its about power, its about control, its about THEIR low self esteem and their inability to behave as a human being.

But yet people seem to be forgiving of this, they seem to think that children must be way out of control and need harsh measures..Why is that ? why are people prepared to be more understanding of this sort of behavior ?

The reason children these days are out of control, doing things that were not done in *your* time is because of how busy everyones lives are, people dump their kids in daycare or with sitters, they don't spend time, quality time with their children, they don't speak to their children properly, they treat them like a commodity rather than what they should be, a precious human being to be loved and nurtured.

We need to put our hands out and say STOP. We need to start raising our children with care...
We need to change the direction in which the world is going, its not getting better, its getting worse every year, and I am frightened for the future that is being shaped for my children, and my children's children in years to come..

It starts with us.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Over being the Wrong Me....

I was emailing a friend, and she asked how I was, one of the things I said to her was that..

"I was over being me, being the Wrong Me"
And I am.

I just don't have the words, or the heart at the moment to really get into more depth than that...needless to say, I just feel that everything is wrong, nothing works, its all a complete lie, my entire life, my entire being..I feel like I am no good at anything, not being a Mother, not being a Wife, not being a daughter, not being a friend, not even being a human being...

I'm tired of being let down, I'm tired of other people walking around with seemingly normal happy lives trampling over others and nothing is said, it doesnt seem to bother other people, but for me, it totally bothers me, and I get told 'you take things too personally' ' don't stress' , ' so what who cares' ' it doesnt bother me - why does it bother you'

Its like I see the world one way, I see all these truly awful things, I see the way people treat other people and its like i watch through a movie camera or something because no one else seems to see it but me...and if (and I do often) point it out I am somehow the bad guy and somehow everything ends up being my fault , and then I get told that I get too involved, and somehow the people in the wrong seem to be the hero's and I end up looking like the baddie - again...how does it all get turned around on me ?

How do people get away with stuff ? but yet if I do the very same thing, I would be chastized in a heartbeat.

How do people walk around hurting other people and its like water off a ducks back, but yet when I get involved, when I Step up to the plate and take responsibility and say hey thats not right , I get mud slung at me ?

How come I see other people doing EXACTLY what I am accused of doing at times and yet thats perfectly fine for them ..........

I don't understand it . I don't understand why no one seems to give a damn.

Back to being the wrong me...I know in my heart there is nothing to say that if I had of stayed with my first mother in England that my life would be better, in fact given the circumstances , my life could have been a lot LOT worse, but I still feel robbed, cheated of a heritage and an entire family.

Im nothing like my adoptive family, and since my adoptive mother died its abundantly clear that she was the glue that held the family together, or rather MADE The family stay together.

I maybe see my adoptive brothers once a year (if that)

Some family hey...
But hell it could have been a lot worse, and I know that, I bet there are lots of people in the world that wish their only problem was being ignored from their family.

And logically I KNOW that, but it really doesn't stop the emotional side of me from feeling what it feels

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Have you heard of the Blog Laketrees ?

Have you heard of the Blog Laketrees The Fine art of Kim Barker ?

Yes ?

Then you would know already about the fantastic competition that she is holding for Christmas - A FREE PORTRAIT worth $6000 PLUS FREE Postage including international..

No?

Nor had I until today when i was blogging along, and stumbled across Laketrees Blog

If you haven't heard about it then You can enter HERE

Just imagine having a beautiful portrait of yourself or your loved one hanging in your special room..

What a fantastic competition, what a fantastic opportunity..

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Today I came across a Blog...........




Today I came across a Blog.
I came across this blog, I believe, for a reason.
You see someone who has started following my blog, was in my followers section, I had a look - who is this person following my blog, I wonder...
And so I looked , and then I looked at the other types of blogs that they follow...
And I came across this blog C Jane Enjoy It
I admit my first thought was "is it a play on words as in see Jane...and was it attacking me..
Yup thats the adoptee in me paranoid that someone is having a go..

So I went, and I saw that no in fact, it was about a woman who was writing her blog about fertility and now motherhood....and now in the past months about her sister and brother in law tragically injured in a plane crash with over 80 percent burns to her sisters body and 30 percent to her brother in laws body...

I am not going to share my feelings at this moment , there are a number of similarities, names, situations and such but I just want to say, I was and AM deeply moved by this sisters blog.....a little bit of me selfishly so, at the thought of my children going through the pain of this happening to their parents, but without this type of support..So I try not to think of that, but still have deep sadness for this young Mother fighting so strongly for her life (and by all accounts doing a marvelous job) And in awe of her sister C and the rest of the family.
So no this is not adoption related, but it is definitely *a moment of the heart* related and so I needed to share it with my readers.........

So from Australia I send my heartfelt prayers and thoughts to you Stephanie And Christian, to your sisters and brother s and the rest of your families...
I also send my thoughts, prayers and condolences to the loss of the pilot Doug Kinneard ...to his family and friends I am so very sorry for your loss..

And so Please visit these blogs, and please if you can help in anyway do so, because there are children out there that really need their Mummy and Daddy to come back home to them.....

I'm about to check out all the links as to what I can do to put forward my little bit..


GET WELL SOON

Stephanie and Christian Nielson