What was I thinking? I spent last evening reconciling with Franco - and I don't even want Franco. I was projecting. I know that. I was projecting my feelings for Ian onto Franco. I don't know why. Well, yes, I do - somewhat anyway. Franco has done...

Well, well, well. I was having a chat with Ryan earlier, and we were talking the way we always do - which is no-holds-barred. He's told me about his swinging days with his wife. Those ended some time ago. He's hinted about reliving that one night we...

I feel a little better now. Ian has started talking to me again. It hasn't been much yet, but the door is open again. I am NOT going to cross any lines. The conversation will be strictly consisting of our mutual likes and dislikes until HE brings up...

Ian still isn't talking to me. Man, I really blew it there.Franco and I decided that nothing was ever going to happen for us. Of course, he made it seem that it was my fault for expecting too much - like for him to actually act like he cared about...

I spent my couple of days with Franco in Florida, and it was as disappointing as the trip to Las Vegas, if not moreso. I arrived late Wednesday night, and we had a wonderful couple of hours "getting reaquainted" in the hotel room before curling up to...